Starting very fresh today, with a brand new program. It's called 'Little Red Ruby' program and it's from the University of ED-NOS. Basically it's a vegan program, apart from the whole 'NO MEAT! But fish is okay' thing. I really hate that. Fish are animals too! Anyway, they have a lot of great programs on that site, and even though they're currently inactive we still have access to the programs FOR OUR OWN PERSONAL USE. No stealing.
Yesterday I met up with a friend of mine in the city. She's come down for the weekend, and we hadn't seen each other in a long time so we met up. She is ana. And way skinnier than me. I love her, but damn I'm jealous! She's gorgeous. Anyway, we had lunch. I took some advice from a facebook friend and ate a normal-person-sized meal in order to help break my plateau(will let you know how that goes soon), and in a public place so I couldn't purge. I couldn't eat a lot, because eating in public makes me so nervous and I started freaking out, but she ate so much more than me. I kinda got the feeling she was doing it to make me feel better. Not like pity, but real consideration. We both know what out eating disorders are doing to each other, and we're making sure we both have the right kind of support. I love this girl so much, she's an amazing friend and I really don't know what I'd do without her.
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